You guys, this is going to be one of those blog posts that I am probably writing more for myself. I have so many things going on in my mind I need an outlet.
I need a job. We are two weeks out from the start of school, and I still do not have a job. I am kinda freaking out.
For those that don’t know, I am trying to get a job in the school district. Either as a Para, or Office Assistant. Rumor has it there is a Para shortage in the district, yet no matter how many jobs I have applied for (12) I still do not have one. In a few cases, I did not even make it past the application screening phase.
The plan was, in June, I would start applying for jobs. I took the Para test and actually passed. I was good to go, but something is just not clicking.
Maybe because all I have under my belt is three-year volunteer experience? It is depressing and worrisome. There is no Plan B. I was so confident I would have a job by now, and I don’t.
I honestly have no idea what to do. Every single day, I have my application open on my desktop, on the district website. I am constantly checking for new job postings, and I am just not getting anywhere.
I pray. I really do. I pray and ask for God’s guidance. I ask him to bring me the right job. I am just one of those people who does not know how to NOT worry. Know what I mean?
Seriously, I was up at 6:00 am ON A SUNDAY checking for new job postings. I am only allowed to apply for twelve jobs at once, and I am telling you I have applied for every single Para position as well as office positions.
I am getting scared. I am doubting myself. Perhaps I was overly confident?
I believe in God. I believe in having Faith, and I believe God sees the bigger picture. I know all this, but for some reason, I am still struggling. It is so hard for me to have blind faith. And then, I find myself asking myself, “Do I deserve this?”
I am an “okay” person. I have made a lot of mistakes, but have also asked for forgiveness. Are we always forgiven?
I feel like such a failure. I cannot even find a job. You guys, I cannot find a job in a district that HAS A SHORTAGE of the exact position I am applying for. One day I hope to laugh about this.
So, in closing, here is the thing…..
If you believe in God, I ask for your prayers. I humbly ask that you put me on whatever prayer request list you may have. My situation is a little different, I need a job in the school district so I have the same hours the kids do. Please, you have my permission to put it out there, I am openly praying and asking for God to bring me a job.
If you do not believe in God, I ask for your well wishes and good thoughts. Please send me whatever it is you have to offer.
If you are a potential employee who came across this blog post because, you know, social media, I ask that you give me a chance. I may not have the fancy credentials of what you are looking for, but I have hands-on experience. Give me a chance. I will beg if I have to, give me a chance, and a year from now, you will find yourself saying “hiring Mrs. Pedro was the best thing we have ever done!”
(See, there I go being overconfident again!)
Please, listen to this song. Beautiful perfection for those of us who do not feel so beautiful or perfect.
One thought on “Prayer Request….or, Well Wishes…”
Definitely praying… will continue to do so… it’s so hard to understand what’s going on…. the “why” no job yet , etc. I know exactly what you mean about worry… I am terrible in that area as well… and I know it’s demonstrating a lack of faith but I don’t know what to do about it. Will definitely keep praying…. I wish I knew what God had in mind…..
As for “forgiven”…… absolutely… no question , no doubt…. it is clearly promised that if we ask for forgiveness, he is faithful and just to give it… its a done deal.