In a few short days, it will be two months since Christin and I started writing together. It has been quite the ride, with much more to come.
I wanted to take this time to address a few things. The writing, that’s the easy part. The feed-back. Not-so-much. Both Christin and I have been blocked by a few people on social media. My only guess is they know their turn is coming and they want to back out while they can.
The hardest part, for me, and I feel comfortable to say Christin too, is having our family read all the dirty details. Speaking for myself, my family knew the very small basics. Basics being I was in a relationship with a guy who had “a little bit of anger issues.”
I am very good at hiding things, (Right, Family? Right?!) At this point in my life, this small two year period, I did not want my family to know the details. I am stubborn like that!
There was a time when T and I were having a pretty bad fight, and I called my sister. My sister got on the phone to try to calm T down, but that was the most of it. I was so good at saying “Oh, everything is fine. How are you?”
My mother called me the other day after reading one of the post. “Jennifer, I feel I failed you as a mother.” After I scolded her for reading the blog, when I told her numerous of time to NOT read the blog, I tried to explain to her that she did not fail me. For a very brief period in time, I failed myself.
I want to make it clear that I know without a doubt I could have called any one of my family members at any give time, and they would have come to save me, and most likely put a certain someone in a body bag. The thing is, I knew eventually, I would save myself. (We are not quite there yet in the blog, but it is coming!)
Christin and I started this writing process while we were trying to locate Alphonso. The third person in our little trio of a family. In the “just under two months” period, we have gotten some great feed back, some not so good, but most importantly, we found a piece of ourselves that we did not quite know was missing, until we found it.